When your doctor tells you that you have cancer, you may find it hard to believe. It is common to feel shocked and numb. You may not be able to take in much information, and find that you keep asking the same questions again and again.
The fear of what might happen next may sometimes be the only thing on your mind. You may feel very sad and upset.
You may know someone who has had cancer. If they did not get better, you might assume that getting cancer means you may die. But the number of people who are successfully treated and cured is increasing. Many cancers that affect young people respond well to treatment. This means that most young people with cancer will get better and have full and long lives.
You may find that your mood changes a lot. One minute you may be laughing with your friends, and the next you may burst into tears – this is completely normal. Or you may find your feelings hit you much later.
Finding out you have cancer is not easy, and it can be hard to fully understand what is happening. It can help to have someone you trust, such as a family member or close friend, with you when you go for your hospital appointments. They can provide support and be there to talk things through with you. They could also help by bringing a list of questions to ask and writing down the answers for you.
Talking about the cancer
After being diagnosed with cancer, you may find the idea of talking about it upsetting or uncomfortable. And putting your feelings into words may seem overwhelming. But talking about how you feel and what you need can help you feel supported. If talking feels too difficult, it may help to write down how you are feeling and then share this with someone you trust.
Sometimes it is hard to be open with the people closest to you. If it feels easier, you can talk to a doctor, nurse or any member of the team caring for you.
Counselling (support if you would like to talk about your feelings)
If you are struggling to cope or feeling low, then it might be a good idea to see a counsellor or psychologist. They are trained to help you understand your feelings so that you can cope better.
You can ask your GP or healthcare team to refer you to a counsellor. Some teenage and young adult (TYA) units will have a counsellor or psychologist as part of the team. Or there might be a counsellor at your school or university.
If you do see a counsellor, you can decide how much you would like to share with them. Anything you tell them will be confidential, so they won’t tell anybody else.
You may feel embarrassed about needing to talk to someone, but psychologists and counsellors are there to help. You may also find it helps to talk to somebody who is not directly involved in your situation. If you are angry with someone or frustrated, you can talk to the counsellor about it without upsetting anyone.
If you decide that the counsellor you are given is not the right person to help you, tell someone. It is important that you trust your counsellor and feel comfortable with them. You shouldn’t feel bad about asking to see someone else if it doesn’t feel right. The person who referred you to the counsellor may be able to arrange for you to see a different counsellor.
Hopes and fears
It might help you cope if you talk about what is frightening you, and things that you hope will happen. If you are finding it difficult to talk about these things, this thinking tool might help. You could use it to write down your hopes and fears. Putting them down on paper might be easier than saying them out loud at first. Or it might just help you to work out how you feel.
Even if you don’t want to share it with other people, you may still find it useful to write down your hopes and fears.
There is also space for you to think about what you could do next to help with your fears. This could be talking to someone in your healthcare team, talking to someone you trust, joining a support group, or just asking for some extra help with day-to-day things.
This thinking tool was written by people affected by cancer. You can find more tools, stories and help using the tool at thinkaboutyourlife.org If you have any comments about this thinking tool, please email cancerinformationteam@macmillan.org.uk